fuck post secret

okay, so i will admit i send postcards to post secret because it is really freeing to just send shit that has been bothering you out there. i also like to look at the secrets that get posted on the site because it is pretty cool to see these little intimate scraps of people's lives.

but am i the only person who is made uncomfortable by the fact that little mr. warren is making all this money of of other people's work? and the fact that all the archives are inaccessible so that people will be forced to buy his books to get their acceptable voyerism on? and that as the site gains more and more popularity the secrets get more and more socially acceptable and insipid?

 

basically i feel like this beautiful thing that was so cool a couple years ago has blown up and becaome trendy.

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I'm way too cynical for 15 years old

I'm honestly tired of life. I've had enough. Nothing ever changes, it's just the same thing day after day. What's the point of it all? I mean, why are we here anyways?  Apparently there isn't much time left until the earth implodes of whatever, and I really don't care. I know that sounds extremely suicidal and all, but I just don't. I'm almost glad. Gah. I sound so depressing and emo...and I hate emos. I don't know, I've just been really depressed lately and I need to write about it. I can't put it on my blog or all my depressingly happy friends will freak out and decide I need help. I have no intention of killing myself! Sure, I have issues, but who doesn't? I can take care of them on my own. I don't need anyone fussing over me and worrying and trying to FIX me! If you're reading this, you know who you are and you are seriously one to talk. I'm sorry. We've been over this already and I should drop it. Forget it. I have work to do.

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Girl U know who U R

What a year it has been.  You were dumped by your ex married lover and since moved on with another married man.  Oh but wait, this time you got your man didn't you.  You got him to divorce his wife and become yours.  Or is he? That is the question.  Does he really believe all your lies, yes he has fallen into your trap for now.  Can you hold on to him by your manipulation and sad tales of your past.  It will be interesting to see. From what I am told he isn't all that happy.  The alcohol that flows thru his vains will help numb his pain and make you look like you are his rock.  Watch out for the shakey sand that lies beneath you my friend. 

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You'll never know

I love you so much that I will be anything that you want me to be. I will do anything you ask of me. I will be anyone for you and I will go anywhere for you. All these things I will do, and more, and I will never stop loving you...and you'll never know. I won't ever tell you, because I don't want to upset you and I know that you wouldn't really understand. It's not that I think that you don't love me, I just don't know...if it goes this deep. I can't call it anything. It just is, unavoidable and completely pure. There is nothing I want from you. All I want is for you to be happy, always and everywhere, and to have the best that you could ever have. I will be here for you for as long as you need me and if you ever want to go, I'll let you go. You'll never know any of this, how deep down it goes and how much I love you. I love everything about you. I love unconditionally, no matter what you do or say or what may happen. I will never willingly hurt you. I'm happiest when I'm with you and completely comfortable with who I am. I can tell you anything and I will listen to anything that you say to me.  You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can't imagine myself without you. I am who I am because of you. I can hardly remember anything before I met you, I was that young, and so many of my memories are of you. You're so beautiful and you don't know it. I love you, my friend, my darling, and I'll never tell you. I'll just be there, as constant as I can be until we're both dead or else you don't want me here anymore.

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if we are here not to do what you and i want to do...why the hell are we even here?

all i ever see is these idiots who all look alike telling me that my clothes are 'cute' and asking me where i bought it. well, you can't buy most of my clothes in a store because everything in the stores looks the same. i make my shit. and no matter how 'cute' you think i look i doubt you would have the balls to wear it even if i presented you with an entire outfit in your perfect size. everyone seems to be searching for the thing that they can't find in stores but they don't really want it, they are too afraid of being tormented for their clothes. whatever happened to creativity people?! your little outfit from forever 21 or girbaud or wherever the fuck you get that bullshit is not unique, despite what the manufacturers want you to believe. no, hot topic is not the bastion of rebellion, try your local thrift store, or better yet your local dumpster. i'm so sick of crowds of beige people, what are we doing in this society that everyone is so afraid to stand out from the crowd? whatever happened to crowds full of colour and everyone doing their own thing? what are we doing wrong that the majourity of kids 11-25 are so scared of being themselves that they hide behind what is 'acceptable'? why is it that we teach people to fear and mock that which is different? of course, it is natural to fear things that are unfamiliar, but that is the animal response, the basic survival instinct, not the ultra-evolved response that we all want to claim for ourselves. our job as humans is to teach ourselves tolerance of all types of people, whether they look like you or not.
some people might say that i am a hypocrite for preching tolerance and ranting about lack of creativity in the same post, but my personal belief is that is that if there was more creativity in clothing, there would be more tolerance. people say that clothes don't really matter but they are a very potent language that we speak to ourselves and each other. clothes affect the way we see ourselves and other people and the way that other people see themselves and us. no, what you wear on a given day is not likely to  shake your self-perception to its very foundations, but it will make you feel more or less attractive, more or less interesting, more or less connected to the other people around you.

come one people, find the art! you have nothing to lose but your chains!

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Metal Master Double Dish

Actually, I wish I knew who to dish it out to in particular cause their influence has gone way over the top.

Heavy Metal used to mean stuff like Black Sabbath, Metallica and Iron Maiden. Don't get me wrong, today we have some great bands like Disturbed, Godsmack, Shinedown and many many others. But the whole "Metal" label has been skewed somewhere along the line. Now it seems that there has to be wild guitar leads at lightning speed that make no musical sense, none the less create any sort of melody. And the vocal slot has been opened up to anybody that can scream and/or growl.

Hey, I love the old Sepultura, which is the root of this new genre. I respect the style. But somewhere we really need to insist that these styles be more effectively labeled. There is grunge metal, and grind core, and gore and lord knows what else. At least the whole Rap thing knew better than to try and side with funk or soul music. Seems to me all this scream metal is just the white boy's answer to the Rap thing.

As I cruise MySpace looking for good "Metal" or "Hard Rock" I continue to encounter these kinds of screamo thrash attack bands. First of all, if you like that stuff. I have nothing against you or your music. I simply think it needs to be reclassified. Alternative Metal would work for me. Anything as long as we draw some clear lines. No matter how I cross reference on MySpace it takes forever to find just one true metal band. And maybe that's really the point of it all. Something new and unique has to rise out of all this Indie Metal Madness.

I found one good one. I've found some others that have promise, but this one I like. They are straight up hard rock. They have some of the screams too but they are different. And they mix it all up well. So, kudos to "Scratch Addict" for doing something a little bit different. And poo on metal for allowing the genre to be so convoluted.

Give these guys a nod and see if I'm not right. <a href="http://www.myspace.com/scratchaddictspace">www.scratchaddict.net</a>



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Metal Master Double Dish

Actually, I wish I knew who to dish it out to in particular cause their influence has gone way over the top.

Heavy Metal used to mean stuff like Black Sabbath, Metallica and Iron Maiden. Don't get me wrong, today we have some great bands like Disturbed, Godsmack, Shinedown and many many others. But the whole "Metal" label has been skewed somewhere along the line. Now it seems that there has to be wild guitar leads at lightning speed that make no musical sense, none the less create any sort of melody. And the vocal slot has been opened up to anybody that can scream and/or growl.

Hey, I love the old Sepultura, which is the root of this new genre. I respect the style. But somewhere we really need to insist that these styles be more effectively labeled. There is grunge metal, and grind core, and gore and lord knows what else. At least the whole Rap thing knew better than to try and side with funk or soul music. Seems to me all this scream metal is just the white boy's answer to the Rap thing.

As I cruise MySpace looking for good "Metal" or "Hard Rock" I continue to encounter these kinds of screamo thrash attack bands. First of all, if you like that stuff. I have nothing against you or your music. I simply think it needs to be reclassified. Alternative Metal would work for me. Anything as long as we draw some clear lines. No matter how I cross reference on MySpace it takes forever to find just one true metal band. And maybe that's really the point of it all. Something new and unique has to rise out of all this Indie Metal Madness.

I found one good one. I've found some others that have promise, but this one I like. They are straight up hard rock. They have some of the screams too but they are different. And they mix it all up well. So, kudos to "Scratch Addict" for doing something a little bit different. And poo on metal for allowing the genre to be so convoluted.

Give these guys a nod and see if I'm not right. http://www.myspace.com/scratchaddictspace



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i wanna be so skinny that i rot from view

and this time i won't tell anyone because they always get so goddamn worried. and think i'm crazy. i'm not crazy, just fat.

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