well i have to say this whole online dating thing sucks ya know!!!! i meet the most WONDERFUL man EVER and it only lasted about a month and we still talk every now & then but it is mostly me talkin now he just reads it. what the fuck is that when we met yeah ok it took him a whole hour and he was already coming over. (hey i can't help it, HE"S HOT ) and the sight we were on, well before even talking to him he was the ONLY guy (still is too) but he was the ONLY one i even wanted to meet and one night after looking at his sexy picture for almost a week, i was drinking a few and decided to let him know i was interested and when he responded back,, i couldn't believe that he wanted to EVEN TALK to me. then after talking for about an hour (not even knowing his name yet) yeah ok i was horny and he was hot and said all the right things so next thing i knew he was here and i was soooooo scared!!! then after fucking him and him bang-in me ohhhhhh i was hooked after the first night. but really i didn't think i would EVER hear from him again. EVER!!! and you know what he was right there when i woke up. it was nice to wake up and see him right there (well on my comp.) but i had it right on the bed with me so it was like HELLO gorgeous!!!! so yeah he came over the next night and the next and yes the next well lets just say he came over every night that week, then it was about once a week, & now no. and man he spoiled me rotten, then took it away!!! he is the only man that made me feel completely insane. i would be thinking of him alll day and night wanting, waiting for him and then i don't know what happened well yeah i do, some sexy little BITCH came along and yeah there tog. and it hurts because i even told him that i loved him and that was the last night we were tog. and the part that pisses me off the most. i HATE saying that four letter word to people. it like bad luck for me because every time i say it to anyone the next thing bammm there gone and i am hurt but you know this is the FUCKED UP part the whole time we have known each other and talking i would say things to myself (NOT TO HIM) but i would tell myself like "just go find someone and see if you still want me" cuz then maybe we have something to work on ? i don't know but it was like everything i would say to him (well i would really tell my comp & just type something else) but it was like he can read my mind for real i am NOT joking at all everything i would "tell my computer" its like he heard me and did it. i would get home go online and just ready to close my comp. and i would say something like if you really like me for more then sex you'll be online in the next 2 min. and sure shit every time there he was hittin me up and now its like i am talking to myself he doesn't really say a whole lot and ya know i still want him and i think i still feel the same even though i am starting to go numb inside because i am sick of the games and hurt but what do you do, well i could tell him to fuck off (but NO) i won't or i could just stop talking to him (but again NO) i just wish he would be mine really i do anyway i am off to do something else.
~peace out
Gigi
p.s. if he happens to EVER read this all i want to do is love him and please him in every way possible no joke.
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